The Higher Power will be Revealed
Recently I came away from a meeting emotionally upset, when a young man stated that he could not “cop” the Alcoholics Anonymous programme because of the word God. I would like to try and express my views on this, in the hope they may help another non-believer.
I had a religious upbringing and find the word God easy to accept, but I had to be spiritually beaten before I found sobriety.
Many times I have heard that AA is a learning programme. To me, the believer, religion is also a learning programme; it simply teaches us about God, and right and wrong. AA teaches us about God (as we understand Him), or a Higher Power, and how to lead a happy sober life.
Alcoholism, we are told, is a three fold disease – physical, mental and spiritual.
When I first accepted the AA programme, I was so physically ill, I wished to die; so mentally ill, I was incapable of making any decision for myself and had to be guided like a child; but it was only when I was so spiritually ill, and felt I had no one or nothing to believe in, or turn to, that I fully accepted the AA program. It was what I now call my “spiritual awakening.”
It is something I can’t explain – it is just an experience that happened. I felt humble, serene and I lost all desire to pick up a drink. I hope and pray that the feeling remains with me for the rest of my life.
All I can say is, if one doesn’t believe, don’t try! Just keep coming to AA and listen to the speakers with an open mind. Sooner or later, if you are an alcoholic (a sick person because it is a disease), when you are ready, physically, mentally and spiritually, you will come to believe in something, whether it be God, a Higher Power, the Man Upstairs, or whatever you may choose to call it.